Chinese New Year Eve

Hmmm, kinda sad to think. Is chinese new year a festive time of celebrations? a time for all your relatives to meet up? who knows? your girl-fren might be your distant cousin which you might never met before till both your parents meet up and say, "oh! he/she is your children ah? aiyo..."

For me, its only another excuse to earn extra pocket money by collect ang pows and winning some blackjack games. Every year, you will have relatives asking, "eh Billy, aiyo, so big already, got pat tor or not?" When planning to get married or what so ever. Seemed like all the relatives do not have a common topic for a proper converation. I guess this is suppose to be if everyone only gets to meet up once a year.

Right now my thoughts are very depress and pessimistic, got nothing much to look forward to in life. Maybe its the lifestyle, maybe its the culture or most probably its myself. A change in the working environment might bring back some spirit... hopefully...

Its about time for the reunion dinner at my grandmother's place. I had an uncle which I never met before cos he escaped national service before I was born and migrated to Australia. He came back to visit my grandmother and his younger brother's wife who is currently still recovering from a very critical illness, some form of viral infection in the brain, just woke up a few days ago from a coma.

Really hope she recovers well.

As for the time being, my goals is to complete my private pilot license and perhaps retake my O levels papers just for the sake of CAAS. Stupid regulation that they have. Another 2 years more and hopefully I can leave my current job and join my dream passion as a commerial airliner pilot.

Feeling right now is really damn depress leh, maybe cos no enbough sleep, no mood to do anything. Hopefully it will turn out better tomorrow. Really glad I am still able to make some people happy.